“Our creative dreams and yearnings come from a divine source. As we move toward our dreams, we move toward our divinity.” -Julia Cameron
It’s been a while since I’ve written a blog post. To be honest I was so blindsided by the results of the election that it felt as if nothing made sense anymore, and I wasn’t even sure what my message was or what it was I wanted to say, in this blog or even in my book. All I knew was that I felt that there needed to be some fundamental if subtle shift in the way I wanted to use my voice.
My memoir has always been about the female experience, but the renewed anger and indignation that have arisen within me has brought this to the fore in new ways. It’s made me brave, because I can no longer afford to hold back any part of myself out of fear of how it might be perceived. It has made my writing more raw and vulnerable and honest about what it has been like to encounter this world as a woman in this day and age, and for that I am grateful.
This past weekend I joined millions of amazing brave women and men around the globe who marched against hate and inequality, and it filled me with so much hope and drive for the possibilities of this world no matter how dark it may seem right now. To march may seem like a small thing, but it isn’t, because the more you show up and stand up and use your voice, the more it will show up in your day to day life. Collectively and personally it begins to add up. So while tomorrow is uncertain, I know that I will continue to stand up in whatever ways I am able.
In addition to any marching or activism that you are able to partake in (if any of you are looking for some more concrete ideas about doable actions you can take, Elizabeth Gilbert did a great comprehensive list here), I think the most important thing any one of us can do right now, especially if you’re feeling like your life’s desires seem small in the face of everything going on (I know I have), is to double down and focus even more on what you have inside yourself to make and to give to this world because that can never be small. We cannot abandon our dreams or desires in the face of uncertainty. It is more vital that it has ever been that we allow our own light to shine as brightly as possible so that together we are able to drive out the darkness.
So that is what I have been doing and what I will continue to do. There is other exciting news I look forward to being able to share in the next few months, but in the meantime I’ll only be posting here sporadically as my main priority will be my memoir. The story of my journey is the biggest thing I have within myself to give, it is what will allow my light to shine the brightest. I encourage you all to make the same space for yourself in your own journeys, to take your dreams and deepest desires even more seriously and give yourself permission to pursue them without guilt or apology.
Carina Covella is a writer and currently working on her forthcoming memoir, Love Dogs, detailing her six month transformational journey from Hollywood through India. Carina graduated from Barnard College, Columbia University cum laude with a degree in Art History. She also attended the Sorbonne in Paris and studied opera at the Manhattan School of Music through the university exchange programs. Until recently she lived in Mill Valley, California with her wonderful Welsh boyfriend Anthony in a house nestled in the trees, but now they’re off on a two year adventure around the world. When she’s not writing or traveling she loves to cook for her friends and family.